I must be crazy.

having an idol is one thing, flying solo like your idol is another.



Most of our life is a series of images. They pass us by like towns on the highway. But sometimes, a moment stuns us as it happens. And we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment... every part of it... will live on forever.

Life's funny sometimes; can push pretty hard like when you fall in love with someone but they forget to love you back, like when your best friend and your boyfriend leave you alone, like when you pull the trigger or light the flame and you can't take it back. Like I said, in sports they call this 'stepping up'. In life, I call it 'pushing back. You know it's been said that we just don't recognize the significant moments of our lives while they're happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it's usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you've realized how wrong you've been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it. God, I love this game. You ever heard the expression 'The best things in live are free.' Well that expression is true.' Every once in a while, people step up they rise above themselves sometimes they surprise you and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard but if you look close enough, you can find hope in the words of children, in the bars of the song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back.

hopefully you will soon realise what's right for you.

day 1

well after a very long time i finaly got to QLD today..

nothing better although if it was actualy sunny ,it would help ay,

lookin forward to lunch tomorrow.. QLD don't have day-light savings so it's an hour earlier then what is back home... it would be 11 15pm where as it's only 10 15 so annoying.

i kinda wanna goto to sleep too ay, but meh, just textin some mad people :)

Im such a boss ay hahaha!!

night chief.

Hello Queensland.

today is my last day in Albury.. for a while.

.

Number 1.

cheers babe.

It's one way..

It's one way.. It always has been, always will be.

prove it

Hypocrite:a person who professes beliefs and opinions that he or she does not hold in order to conceal his or her real feelings or motives

You can find the good in anybody if you just give them a chance, benefit of the doubt. Sometimes people disappoint you, sometimes they surprise you, but you never really get to know them until you listen for what's in their heart. that's what we should do. so for all you skeptics out there. prepare to be surprised.

Happiness comes in many forms.
In the company of good friends,
in the feeling you get when you make someone else’s dreams come true,or in a promise of hope renewed.
It’s ok to let yourself be happy,
because you never know how great that happiness might be.
...Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life,
that you expect it to always be there,
because you can’t remember a time in your life when it wasn’t.
But then one day you feel something else.
Something that feels wrong only because it’s so unfamiliar,
and in that moment you realize you’re happy

lifes a lesson, class is in session.

The old man shuffled slowly into the restaurant. With head tilted, and shoulders bent forward, he leaned on his trusty cane with each unhurried step. His tattered cloth jacket, patched trousers, worn out shoes, and warm personality made him stand out from the usual Saturday morning breakfast crowd. Unforgettable were his pale blue eyes that sparkled like diamonds, large rosy cheeks, and thin lips held in a tight, steady smile.

He stopped, turned with his whole body, and winked at a little girl seated by the door. She flashed a big grin right back at him. A young waitress named Mary watched him shuffle toward a table by the window. Mary ran over to him, and said, "Here, Sir. Let me give you a hand with that chair."

Without saying a word, he smiled and nodded a thank you. She pulled the chair away from the table. Steadying him with one arm, she helped him move in front of the chair, and get comfortably seated. Then she scooted the table up close to him, and leaned his cane against the table where he could reach it.

In a soft, clear voice he said, "Thank you, Miss. And bless you for your kind gestures." "You're welcome, Sir." She replied. "And my name is Mary. I'll be back in a moment, and if you need anything at all in the mean time, just wave at me!"

After he had finished a hearty meal of pancakes, bacon, and hot lemon tea, Mary brought him the change from his ticket. He left it lay. She helped him up from his chair, and out from behind the table. She handed him his cane, and walked with him to the front door. Holding the door open for him, she said, "Come back and see us, Sir!" He turned with his whole body, winked a smile, and nodded a thank you. "You are very kind." he said softly.

When Mary went to clean his table, she almost fainted. Under his plate she found a business card, and a note scribbled on a napkin. Under the napkin was a one hundred dollar bill. The note on the napkin read...
"Dear Mary, I respect you very much, and you respect yourself too. It shows by the way you treat others. You have found the secret of happiness. Your kind gestures will shine through those who meet you."

The man she had waited on was the owner of the restaurant where she worked. This was the first time that she, or any of his employees had ever seen him in person

blank memories.

certain things, with certain people change so quick.
one thing is said, or done.. and it's changed.
you go from being good friends where nothing could possibly get in the way.
but it does.

i couldn't give to shits what you do now.

GFS.

public holiday rates

i love working on public holidays, double time n a half haha whoop.

so i was watching one tree hill(SEASON 8) last night, it's pretty good. One of the few good shows still around these days...

I was planning on going to the movies tomorrow but cause i don't get payed weekly i dont have enough money too!! which is shitty.

I laugh because Collingwood players have been accused of raping people the day after the win the grandfinal.. gooood collingwood.

anyways, i might do somthing constructive with the rest of my night, like read a book.

CYAAAAAAA.

live life with no regrets.

Yeah, it's a picture, what of it, it happened, and i dont regret it.

Holidays week 1 has been aight, 2 grand finals is a bit fcked but ay, saints shoulda won the first time but nooooooooooooo! stupid AFL has to replay the next week.

Things are good atm.. Not many complications if any.. Qld soon :D :D how i've missed Qld haha..

Anyways tonight/today was the first daylight savings day on the calander, it was so shitty waking up so early for work this morning but after 7.5 hours(which felt like 100) i just chilled for the rest of the day.

"Somone once said that everything happens for a reason, wanna know who said that? you said that"

HolLis Outtt!!

8/9/10

dear pa;

the first thing i thought about when i woke up was you pops, 2 years has gone so quick, you got no idea. i wish you were still here, and so does everyone. I really wish i could just pick up the phone and call you, but it's not that simple anymore.. We went out to visit you and nan this afternoon.. the entire time i was looking up, looking for you in the sky. I can't believe its been 2 years since we were all in that room at the hospital, that image has stuck in my mind. the time was exactly 6:21pm. that was the longest night of my life. I'm sitting here right now listening to music, thinking of you, and wondering would life be any different if you were still here or not. Everyone misses you and nan both so much. I did a speech as a candidate as Mackillop house captain, i did my best, we find out tomorrow who gets it. I know you'd be so proud if i got it. Cricket starts soon, I'll never forget that day out at Thurgoona when you and nan came to watch me play, i hit a 4 right where you were sitting, you both being there gave me extra motivation to try and do good. This year in my cricket i want to better my performance from last year, i want to achieve the best that i possibly can, it'll all be for you, every wicket i take, every run i make it will be for you. I start year 12 soon, that should be interesting, and then I'm free to take on the world.

if only i could tell you all of this in person.

I love you pa !

PAST

I WANT TO LET GO!

this is just fucked up, im sick of it.

boring ass friday night

this afternoon i went to fight gym, it was so good let off some steam from events that happened today, and i was excited about this friday night but it's been so bloody boring its so ridiculous..

there is nothing to do, im honstly contemplating going to sleep right now.'


hmm.. i dunno what i feel a.t.m, although my ankle and wrist is so fricken sore :( !

probs not gunna do much tomorrow, haha 24th of july memerable date.

anyways im strugglin have a swell time.

-HoLlIs.

Cinderella Man.

People chose to stop and stare.

I'm bored.

Have a good night :)

ily pops.

My mate.

Dear Pa.



It's your birthday today, happy birthday.

Its almost been 2 years since i spoke to you last, i wish i could pick up the phone like old times and just have chat. there have been so many things that i wish you could have been here for, i know people say your there but its not the same. How's nan? i miss her cakes and the way she used to cut my toast. i just really miss you both heaps. theres so much that i want to say to you both.

goodnight pops, i hope you've had a wonderful birthday, i love you.

- Sambo

I'll be seeing you soon.

Right before everything went black, you wanna know the very last thing that entered my mind? you.

say what you need to say

this afternoon i chilled with Alex, it was good to talk like old times at the oval :)

i love when i'm listening to music and it matches how im feeling at the present time, its interesting.

john mayer fully sick.

pre bored atm.

off to watch movies (:

catch up with ya

I will follow you into the dark.

'love of mine some day you will die,

but i'll be close behind,

I'll follow you into the dark'

I wish you'd relise.

I wish you'd reply with more then one word.

Or just anything really.

death cab for cutie

= FULLY AWESOME

Young Forever

music is an escape to everyday life, without music i couldnt live. for some people success comes naturaly and for others people have to work to become successful.

"I'm still waiting for you to arrive" - me.

HOLLIS

aye

John mayer is awesome.. good start to the holidays saw toy story (it was awsome) now i wanna see shrek and eclipse ( LOL) :D

have a goodnight.

hollis

English period 5 last day of school.

today has been an intersting day at school..
im sitting in english atm with steph(staggy)lawerance, blake(nothankyou) edwards.\

i love english class, best people in there but aye

work tonight its gunna be shitty tonight but ill cope..

talk tonight

ily XX

HOLLIS

SIMPLICITY

lets reschedule this post.

p.s Good luck josh my brother for tomorrow =D

HOLLIS

shout out to : TAYLA VOGEL!

Tayla thanks for coming on my deb table last night, despite the awkwardness at the start you seemed to enjoy your self.. your awesome continue being awesome hahaha :D

ily best mate tails (:

HOLLIS

so close, bet yet another set back.

last night was the deb, it was amazing i met new people and they're mad, jordan bernobic you are an amazing deb partner, thank you. the after party was interesting.. a few more people turned up then expected but it was an alright night. dont you hate when you have your heart set on doing something but then only for it to be thrown right back at you so quickly, mhm its shit.

Tyler Smyth; you are amazing ol' son, i know you worried about the party but you had mates there this morning who were mostly helping, i hope you enjoyed the bacon i cooked :D what you did was pretty brave man but you pulled it off, keep your head up.
*bows to smythie*

today im really seedy, went to sleep at 6:30 am woke up at 8:00 am the best sleep i've ever had buahaha!!

the one thing that i wanted will probs never happen anymore, time to give up, or maybe keep trying.. who knows.

anyways this is just another pointless blog about me being bored and wanting to say stuff.. all in all thank you Mr. Smyth you did well ily.

Hollis

Julia Gillard..

Today has been an interesting day in politics, australias most popular prime minister Kevin Rudd stood down to Julia Gillard.. personaly i think its stupid that the prime minister changed without holding a national election, then again i still cant vote.. if i could i'd go liberal all the way the dont seem to stuff up the country.. anyways

tomorrow is friday which is awesome, one more lunch of soccer lets hope my foot has healed by lunch haha, my sister gets home only to move out the following day the final deb practice everrrrrr!!! then saturday the almighty june 26th the deb..

im excited haha.

i didnt really have much to say tonight, except im against this whole julia gillard thing, its a load of SHIT

hollis!

karmichael

if my maths is up to standerd the deb is 3 days away, thursday = school/work , friday = school/debtraining(final one) saturday = DEB WOO HOO!
it shall be an exciting day/night.. kudos to smyth for hosting the after party, i'll be there in the morning to help clean up bud! I managed to get jordan a present this afternoon, its mad as :)

last night = wake up call..
its time i figured out what i want to do with my life after school, i dont like school, it pisses me off.

i'm looking forward to spending saturday night with heaps of good people, have mad talks with s.daly at the after party shes awesome =D (hope you get better though)

i enjoy making music.

tonight im just saying random shit just to put something down anyways... i've got music to listen to, and things to look forward too.

One life, One chance.
- Hollis

sunday 20th of june 2010.

Hollis here,
My usual day consists of; wake up,have breakfast,shower,get dressed for school, run to the bus stop in order to catch the bus, go to school, catch bus, get home, eat,drink,talk,facebook,tea,facebook,bed. I need to change that.
Last week i completed my second song, I recorded it using my awesome computer mic located next to my webcam. It's called ' I'm still waiting' its pre mad. One word, Doodleburger haha!! Funniest shit I've ever seen.
Tonight was the final deb training/practice for a sunday night.. The deb is next saturday whoop!!
That night shall be swell.

I cant say I've ever written a blog thing before, I guess I've could never be bothered enough to sit down and write about my self, but hey theres a first time for everything.

Tomorrow means new school week, hm how i love school. The one thing that has been consistant with my schooling for the last year and a half maybe is not my grades but its the fact that I purchase a hot dog and a large choc milk from the canteen, it costs me $5.50 everyday but now I consider my self slightly more healthy then what I was, get on the Red/Green Pump water.

Enough for now, time to listen to my Ipod.

'Success is my only motherf*cking option, not failure.

- Hollis.